HEY CLEVELAND!

with the group somewhat disbanded its easy to forget our little blog here......no worries, ill pass along ur message if i get to talk to chica. communication with her is VERY hit and miss. no she is not married but she is very wrapped up with her bf. cant tell if its by choice or his paranoia. ??? oh well. hope all is well with u.........

sooooo im a little perturbed because of some mutiny amongst the ranks. is it just me or do u guys also feel that when it comes to x-inlaws family and friends should cut ties with said person? its one thing to c the x in a public place and give the nod or say a quick hello but i feel its a different situation when family and friends put forth the effort to attempt to get in touch with said x. seems a little, hmmm.......dirty and backstabbing. (especially in this situation) i dont know, is it just me??? am i being trivial??? it went from a simple "hey" to an invite to hang out. im not really pleased with either but i would b the bigger person and deal with the simple "hey", hanging out?.......REALLY DOESNT SIT WELL WITH ME. no definites on the invite but believe me i will b lookin into this and asking questions.........more later.

NOT DEAD, JUST UBER BUSY

i really must apologize for the time lapse here....but yall should know how it is, u get wrapped up in a project and the next thing u know its 4 months later!?!? last time i posted t and i hadnt had our wedding yet....well we made it thru that with minimal incident and a short month later we were house shopping! 30-some properties later we found the house and now we're workin on movin in. i also posted that there were some proposals in the works......yeah, bubba and l ended up eloping in august and my bro popped the question to A. their wedding will b next september!! yay!!! all kinds of sappy love happiness flyin around here!!! (really i am happy, excited and grateful for everyone....its been a helluva year for all of us) chica is having a baby girl---cheyenne, due in december. hoochiemama's been tryin to call us, bless her heart but we've been too busy to answer the phone or return a phone call that isnt pertanent to what we're doin. sorry darcy!

work is work for everyone. at one point i thought our "staffing challenge" problem was goin to b fixed BUT the chic they hired called off due to a death in her family and got busted in a supposed lie bout that. among numerous other newbies gettin fed up and well u know how that line ends.......i wont bitch too much bout the other bullshit that goes on---just know that i will constantly go thru this cycle where i feel like there should b a common thread of decency, empathy and teamwork in the business i work and will always b amazed when FUCKTARDS make my job harder than it already is or when they r UTTERLY clueless about the capabilities of the residents who make their paychecks or wander aimlessly and sit idly by while their nursing staff BUSTS THEIR ASSES in the middle of a "staffing challenge" situation! *note to self: i love my job, i love my job, i love my job.

seems like i should have more to say considering its been 4 months but this is just meant to b a quick update......no point in rehashing old details, on to future days!!!! :)

M.I.A.

my goodness, i cant believe NO ONE has posted in over a month!!! my bad guys....how bout an update in a nutshell??? work is still short on help. at least there is word of applications being filled out. i had gotten a letter from t's mom requesting a "meet n greet" but that is an issue im temporarily ignoring. angie threw me a bridal shower/bachelorette party---all im gonna say is there was a giant penis. lmao. steve-o threw t a bachelor party. hoochie mama moved outta state. got a teaching job in nevada i do believe. my right arm kept feeling numb in the morning so i went to the doc....bad news on that one, had a test done, still bad news but not as horrible as i thought. (still upsetting though) i knew july was gonna b tight cause of the wedding but with the news from the doc and even MORE unexpected news.....uh would anyone like to sell their kidney and donate the cash to me??? seriously??? yep, sure sucks being a grown up! mandy is somehow under the impression that she can bring her bf to our wedding when we already discussed that ppl were NOT allowed to bring dates. i wonder if she finds it odd just yet that she may know the actual date but no times or locations??? :) also there is word out that someone will b asking someone else to marry them really soon and one proposal in the works!! i think that about sums up the gossip. well, i could give u dirty details but we'd b here all nite.

seems like for the time being hoochie mama and chica will not b posting on the site due to the lack of an internet connection........so if im hit and miss please forgive me, u know being a responsible grown up is very demanding. HAHAHA

has anyone truly listened to the lyrics of "stroke it"??? maybe it was just the unedited version i was listening to but my god i can remember the dj playin that song at our middle school dances!! and they want to blame metal and rap music (along with everything else) for our misguided youth.......how bout pumping songs about takin it up the ass into our heads at 12 yrs old?!? HAHAHA

alright, i said my piece.....now onto better things............

THE ROOF, THE ROOF, THE ROOF IS ON FIRE

how was everyone's holiday weekend? mine was pretty good. we had friends over saturday for a cookout and a few much needed drinks. l started singin this rhyme....starple starple little twink....none of us can remember the rest of it. damn. ill have to have her tell us again. i got burned, bad. so sunday was mostly recuperation. if u ask me my shins still look a lil too red/purple. eh. monday we cooked out again, t put new shocks on his car and hoochiemama came over. us girls were chillin on the front porch when t comes home and says whats goin? i saw a bunch of black smoke clear across town. to which i reply...what?! i dont know. and so he shows us.....no shit u could c this huge cloud of black smoke pouring out from somewhere behind our house. hmmm. this is about 330pm. well ofcourse the fire trucks start rollin thru. but the longer we're hangin out the more trucks keep flyin by. from all different area fire houses mind u.
we have to take a short break in the story here so i can explain something. awhile back we watched a comic, and part of their bit was that when white ppl here sirens they run towards it to check shit out while black ppl hear sirens and run away as fast as they can. with that in mind we can continue the story........

so the more i keep seeing all these trucks my curiosity got the best of me. t finally said fuck it, get in the car and ill take u over there. all the while teasing me that i was so "white" that i couldnt keep my curiosity under control. :D anyhooo....we drive towards the smoke and realize that 1. we weren't the only ones checkin it out. most of the town had set up shop around the area to watch. yes, i said watch. they even brought their kids with em! "hey kids, get ur shoes on. we're gonna go watch death and destruction!! woohoo!!"---seein the kids there was a lil disturbing. also seeing how true that comic was was amusing and ironic. i told t and darcy that all we needed was a fuckin vendor selling bratwurst and pepsi and then it would b a streetfair. and 2. it seemed that the fire had started in some storage sheds and then jumped to the factory that butted up with the sheds. the firefighters also looked like they were havin a hard time "controling" the fire---ie....not enough water, help, know-how, etc.

with curiosity fed we left. i noted to t and darcy that we should definitely try to becareful b/c if us or anyone else in the town had an emergency or fire we would just die---cause all the fire trucks we had were over at the factory. pfft! the next day i read the article in our paper about this fire........they indeed did not have enough water nor enough pressure comin from the fire hydrant to handle the demand. yes many trucks responded to the call---mvfd, elmwood fd, centerburg, utica, homer, st.louisville, fredericktown, east knox. firefighters were there until 3am that nite. there's an estimated 1.5 mil worth of damage done based on a walk thru only. and last but not least.....they believe 2 "juveniles" may be responsible and have been questioning them.

the paper quoted a supervisor or some employee from the factory basically saying that he tried to tell the FD how to put the fire out but that they didnt listen and thats y the fire jumped from the storage sheds to the plant. HA! it woulda been funny if he had added that the FD not listening really burns his ass. hehehe.

SEE THIS

lemme paint a picture for u.....imagine for a moment that u r a parent. lets say u have just one kid, boy/girl---doesnt matter and that they r 3yrs old. they can do some things for themselves but not much. ie---feed themselves but make a mess everywhere, tell u they have to pee but tell u 2 minutes too late, occassionally shit themselves, try to walk but need guidance, definitely need help bathing, maybe get themselves into bed/chair/whatever but u still need to adjust them, remind them to stop touching that or dont play with it, etc. .......nevermind that u still have to clean all the messes that happen---dishes, dirty diapers/underwear, trash, teeth, laundry, snacks, playtime, cookin 20 different things to get em to eat......get the pretty picture??? now imagine that with 30 SOME PPL ALL AT ONCE. THAT is what being an stna is like. and u only have 8hrs to get it all done. :) good luck right? right.


ull never believe it.....the newbie i trained on monday walked out on her lunch break over the 2 days i was off. LMAO really i shouldnt laugh cause thats shitty for the rest of us, but i find it amusing. BEING A STNA IS NOT CAKE WORK. IT IS HARD PHYSICAL LABOR, DEMANDING AND STRESSFUL. if u think otherwise, GET A FUCKIN DIFFERENT CAREER!!! (theres some more newbies comin in, let us hope they do better than this last one...afterall she had 15yrs experience and couldnt hack it)

sorry if all im doin lately is bitchin about work. it is what preoccupies most of my week considering im there 5 out of 7 days. second shift none the less. doesnt leave much time for socializing. anyhoooo the bday was good, didnt get enough cash to do the memorial tattoo like i wanted but i appreciate the effort. got some emerald studs :D jewelry is always good and enjoyed too much cake. hoochie mama is in town but i have yet to c her. no word from mandy. did the girl thing with angie and hopefully something will b in store for memorial day weekend. *starts thinking....*

just desserts.....

Well, it would seem that some congratulations are in order. An esteemed member of our little world has somehow managed to survive yet one more year of dealing with idiots. So I say to you, Tasha, Happy Birthday. Best wishes, and Thank you. Yes, Thank you for not going off the deep end and bitch slapping the shit out of everybody who has managed to get on your nerves in the last year.

LAST NERVE

well its been another long week and im not so sure theres relief in sight. friday it was me and one other aide for the ENTIRE upstairs floor for 4hrs. i wont rehash earlier in the week.....lets just say there was alot of caffeine, nicotine and chocolate. this weekend off was definitely not enough time away from that place. *sigh* i have to put on my happy face cause im training a newbie tomorrow. we have a hard enough time gettin help, wouldnt want to spoil her impression from the get go....besides she'll have it figured out in a couple of days. ;)

it becomes more and more apparent to me that some ppl really just have some kinda gall. for example---i have the wedding invitations done. they just need to b delivered. we've already decided that unless our guests r already married no one can bring dates. this seems to b causing a stir. the whole "but he/she's my bf/gf" or "but we really like each other". like i fuckin care if the 2 of u r in a relationship or just fuck buddies. ITS OUR WEDDING. WE DECIDE WHAT HAPPENS AND WHOS INVOLVED. if u dont like it then dont fuckin come, but dont piss and moan to me about it. furthermore, we're not made of money. we're not feeding the stray. which brings me to example #2---just b/c we drive decent cars and live in a nice house doesnt mean that we have money to spare. all it really means is that we can budget our money and we're responsible with how we live. it truly burns my ass that anyone would think that we live life on easy street around here. CAUSE WE DONT. or that--example #3---just b/c im in my mid 20's all i like to do is party. where the hell does that come from??? honestly, walk a day in my shoes with the experiences and choices ive had, made and live with. sorta makes me feel like the ppl that say that to me think i have that "young n dumb" disease. I WAS BORN AT NITE BUT NOT LAST NITE.

final thoughts on this phenomenon goin around---1. dont assume b/c ur friends with me im willing to compromise my standards, morals, ethics or the decisions i make. dont whine to me about my lack of compromise either. 2. dont assume anything about me period.

have a lovely fuckin day.

AND THEN.......

wouldnt it b nice to b here with a cold one in hand??? mmm, oh the possibilities..........

**SNAPS BACK INTO REALITY** shitty huh? yeah, i know but it wouldnt b called being a grown up if it didnt suck ass from time to time! i saw a shirt at wally world the other day that sorta fits the mood lately.....it read---ill be nicer if you get smarter. t says i wont ever have to b nice again b/c ppl will always b fuckin stupid. hehehe :D which brings me to a small rant about work.........HIRE SOME FUCKING HELP FOR SECOND SHIFT!!!!! ooookay, now that thats over i can fill u in on the gossip:
1. the resident i had filled with the holy spirit and goin off is slowly gaining control of their senses again........(that is if they had it in the first place)
2. t and i found centerpieces and the fabric i was lookin for to make tablecloths. (i know this info is probably too domesticated for u, but u can kiss my ass)
3. p from work is STILL NOT FINISHED with my scrub tops. (i gave her fabric almost a yr ago)4. there is NOT enough angry rap music. (someone do something about that)
5. the x-nurse that was fuckin a resident is NOW fuckin the assistant maintenance guy. (lmao)
6. an aide was fired for not using a gait belt when assisting a resident. (resident got hurt, uh oh)
7. l had been missing from work. (i was sent on a mission to find her, did, in hospital, sucks)
8. t called his boss a bitch. (gave woman complex, she took off work for days)
9. im tryin a sunless tanning lotion. (develops over days, not orange yet)
10. some congrats r in order. (i hear a rattle)
11. my bday is in 13 days! (start sending the gifts...)
12. i bought gas for 2.77!? (asanine that i think thats "cheap" compared to 2.80-some)
13. all the xtra hrs i worked....CHA CHING! ( :D )

thats all u get for now kiddies, dont want ur heads to explode with all this news. (see! im being nice protecting y'all----someone better b smarter damn it!!!!!)

JUST WORK

its been some week! workin short and workin 12hr shifts....whew! sunday nite i worked 12 and i worked on LL the entire time. i had a resident who found the holy spirit that nite. this res is usually in a good mood but lemme tell ya this mood went far beyond---to the point of being annoying. im sure yall have experienced someone like this. anyhoo, this res has big plans of "waking ppl up" at our facility. they just wouldnt let it go and when they asked me what i thought i told em.......im glad ur excited but most ppl dont feel comfortable talking about God so b careful in what u say and how u say it. this comment just brought on more of a lecture. sigh.

i was finishing up report when the nurse heard someone moaning and went to check it out. she stepped out of the room and said.....im gonna need help. i was like oh shit cause when i checked on this resident they were sittin on the edge of their bed just fine. so we all go in the room and said resident is stretched across the width of their bed on their back, blood rushing to their head moaning away. it was sorta funny given the nature of this resident. we sit the res up and get them standing cause the nurse needs a urine sample......well the nurse realizes that the res has proceeded to piss all over the floor. she gets mad, tells the res that this is what happens when u get babied and runs off to get a catheter kit. u can imagine the moaning and groaning we heard when she straight cathed the person...................but she got her urine sample! ;)

oh yes, fun times and sick nursing home humor.

Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, The courage to change the things i cannot accept, And the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people that i had to kill today because they pissed me off. And also help me be careful of the toes i step on today as they may be connected to the ass that i might have to kiss tomorrow. -------Amen

EASTER BUNNY?

well folks i missed april fools day and received a news flash yesterday that this weekend is easter. oops! y is it again that easter is celebrated? it marks the day that jesus ressurected himself? so where the hell did the bunny with the eggs come from? y is a rabbit distributing eggs? and of all things y r they colored and filled with candies? that is not what comes out of the eggs i crack open! pfft. just what did that chicken have to do to get a rabbit to do its bidding? who the hell decided that when the easter bunny comes u have to hunt for the eggs? what a sick lil game parents like to play with their kids. "c'mon kids, get up, get dressed in fancy clothes and run around outside tryin to find eggs hidden in obscure places! yay! it'll b sooo much fun!" wtf. when i was little i ran around outside looking for eggs and enjoying the goodies. but it wasnt one of those holidays where i couldnt sleep the nite b4 b/c of the excitement. it was more like waking up, lookin outside and seeing colored specks all over the yard and then wanting to go investigate. and yes, i will play the same game with my kids. because i too want to make my kids look like crack addicts running around for their next hit during an egg hunt. :)

DO IT UR DAMN SELF!

can i just say that it is highly unprofessional to have visitors come to ur place of employment and hang around anymore than 10/15 minutes. especially in the medical field, we dont have time for that shit. AND its distracting to the other employees. yes, i am a little perturbed over a situation that happened over the weekend. lets just say that while i was busting my ass and dealing with a new admit my nurse proceeded to take one too many breaks---at least much longer than the 15 minutes we're allowed---not to mention the visitors and then to top it off........she sent a trainee to tell me that a resident needed to b changed. now i was already in a room putting a res. to bed, if she bothered to figure out if the res. was wet then y the hell didnt she just go ahead and change them??? i dont have an answer to that but i let the trainee know that if the nurse wanted so-n-so changed she should do it herself cause i was gonna b awhile yet. i have no idea if the resident was changed or not.....im not a fuckin babysitter so i didnt double check. i dont expect a nurse to answer lights and do my job if im free to do it myself, but when im obviously in the middle of something...........yeah. it takes teamwork to do what we need to do, not the attitude of "im a nurse, get an aide." pfft!!!!

yesterday t and i dug up some bricks that were used around the house as edging. okay.....it was alot of bricks but we decided to use them as a border for the fire pit we dug. yeah t dug/pulled out the one closeline pole we had in our yard and put in a fire pit. woohoo! i love bonfires during the summer. :) it was sorta therapuetic to smash up the leftovers but we're sore today. hahaha no physical labor is easy. ;)

thats all i have time for today. gotta get ready to earn my dollar.................

THIS IS IT???

i take it no one cared for "the news"??? lol. its okay, i understand. we all have better things goin on than to listen to me rant over a pretzel. i have no other news. nothing juicy about work---although my 1yr is this month. no drama from any of the girls---but i did c hoochie mama on her spring break. there was mention of a chicken mauling..........have u seen the bk commercial with the giant chickens??? yeah, apparently someone thought they were real at first glance. pfft...no wonder chicken is so damn expensive!! damn those steroids!! i got a phone call from the parks dept. saying that i couldnt reserve what i already did 2 months ago---no fear its all straightened out now. ;) hmmm.....thats about it. my life is soooo interesting! hahaha. i did finally call my friend rachel. it was good catching up with her, i hope that we get to do it again soon. and that eventually we'll feel comfy enough to hang out. :) .......wow, i cant believe thats it. no more gossip or any bitching. something must b off in the universe. i really dont mean to pull a "mandy" with a short post but im stumped. well then maybe tomorrow will b more exciting? g'nite y'all!

THE NEWS

we're watching the news the other nite and this guy has a segment that reminds me of john something's "gimme a break" on 20/20. this guy is talking about pretzels and how some ppl r going to b in an uproar b/c the pretzel shape is an old CHRISTIAN symbol. the cross shape in the middle of the pretzel is the same shape as ppl folding their arms across their chest to pray. all of this being brought up b/c the pretzel is a staple lent food item. (its made of flour and water so its okay to eat during lent) pfft. r u fuckin kidding me??? seriously??? if ppl start getting pissed and the traditional pretzel shape starts being recalled........r ppl that bored? r they really that concerned over a FUCKIN PRETZEL? c'mon there r worse things goin on in the world and probably next door to ur house than the shape of a pretzel. PPL KILL ME!!!!

then the news switches to a local town of ours fast becoming the CAT CAPITAL of ohio. wtf??? did i just hear that right??? yeah, unfortunately i did. seems to b a, and i quote, "exploding cat population" goin on. if this is a new breed of cats then i definitely want to visit this town and check the cats out.....but if ur wasting news time to discuss the increase of stray cats.......holy shit!!!! they even went as far as to interview locals and the mayor to get their opinion. "ugh, yeah, ima gettin real tired of pickin up cat shit in my front yard. could y'all do somin bout that." gawd.

thank god for angry music. :) and i leave u with this lil song by korn.........

My brother, you love her But don't give up your instincts Hang onto you know what They'll be gone fast as you blink They're trained to seduce you Suck you dry quick as they can They tried to reduce you Now you're barely a man
Oh my God How can you deny the flood That's flowing through you Hey you You're saying that she's all that you desire Liar
Hey you You think you can throw water on this fire Liar
It's not wrong to let go And let the woman ride you For fuck sake, don't lose touch With the dog that's inside you She wanted what you had You bet she smelt the spore Don't give up, fuck her up One more time, slam that door
Oh my God How can you deny the flood That's flowing through you Hey you You're saying that she's all that you desire Liar Hey you You think you can throw water on this fire Liar
Oh my God How can you deny the flood That's flowing through you Hey you You're saying that she's all that you desire Liar Hey you You think you can throw water on this fire Liar
Oh my God How can you deny the flood That's flowing through you

I GOT NOTHIN

so wednesday t and i spent the day running around our local town getting ideas and information on a cake. we went to a new bakery and sat for a good hour. c, around here whenever something new opens the whole town likes to go there. its like a huge event. ppl get dressed up, the rednecks put on their good clothes, everyone tries to use good manners and proper english and its just a good ol time. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD ITS JUST A FUCKIN BAKERY!!! no different than the one in krogers or neffs or any other grocery store. pfft. anyhoooo once we were able to talk with one of the bakers it was all down hill. this guy didnt know shit and kept having to go get answers to come back and still know nothing. ugh. did i mention he told us our order would b the first wedding cake for them? yeah, we left. we're still on the look out.

i talked to chica.......shes in love!! awww. no really. shes been dating the same guy for a lil while now and he told her he loved her. im happy for her. we were supposed to get together last weekend but it didnt fly....i havent seen her since xmas. maybe next weekend??? i also tried callin hoochie mama but with no answer and no return call. hmmm. u know im gettin sick of this shit and invitations rnt set in stone yet!! ;) hahaha

a few days ago t found a dead cat next to our house. just layin under the dryer vent all sprawled out. it was strange looking. as if it had just been relaxing, gettin warm and then croaked. i kept goin on and on bout how it was just layin there so t put into action operation removal. so he has his gloves on and a garbage bag on top of those and proceeds to pick up our feline friend. thank god it wasnt stuck to the ground....although that couldve proven sickly humorous. while holding it he feels these lumps under its skin and its cracking, then sliding down from the garbage bag. he has to stop and readjust eventually making it to the small field behind our house. plunk! no more dead cat. hes reminded of a punk song including the lyrics "dead cat!" and then "smelly cat" from friends. this dead cat occupied our lives for 24hrs non stop. strange. even when animals r sick i thought they holed up by themselves somewhere....not out in the open, next to a house of all things. sooo gross, when i had the dryer on the air was blowing its fur not yet frozen to its body. glad its over with....but im keeping my eyes open for any other dead animals lyin around. if theres more i think thats a definite sign!! hahaha

okay so the halloween picture up top is late. really late. but i was having trouble with blogger remember. i decided to give it a go while i was typing this post. sure enough it uploaded. woohoo! better late than never.........even if it has nothing to do with anything ive said!

GOOD TIMES

the weekend is coming to a close and i must say ive enjoyed myself. i went shopping on saturday and came home to have l and j over. i was a little disappointed shoppin cause i didnt find as many scrub tops as i was hopin for but oh well. its money saved, right? hahaha l and j got here and we ended up playing battle of the sexes. needless to say l and i kicked ass! (thats cause boys r dumb! lmao) then we watched a history of violence....it was good til the end. i hate that. when u get a great movie and then the producers let the end blow. whatta shame. it was a good time....we definitely have to do it more often. i thought i was gon na c chica but she must of got caught up in a "screwy" situation if u know what i mean!! HAHAHA

remember me tellin u guys that my x talked to my friend rachel??? and how i was on my soapbox preachin about how i wasnt gonna initiate shit??? yeah.....i bit the bullet and emailed her and got a pleasant response. yay! who knows where this will lead but the ride should b interesting. :)

one last thing i must do b4 i go back to my vegitative state for the day.......i work with a guy named jeremy quite a bit. the other nite we worked on the same hall and it wasnt that i was being lazy, but stupid shit got me caught up. u know, brush my teeth, comb my hair, shave me---all things that didnt need to b done right away but i went ahead and did them. well this left jeremy to fend for himself on the floor. he busted his ass and i told him id publicly give him props for doin a good job. so here it is---THANKS FOR ALL UR HARD WORK!! :)

now that the psa is over im goin back to a semi state of hibernation. c y'all on the flip side!

RANDOM THOUGHTS

its my day off and im fighting what seems to b the last of a cold. isnt it great what stress can do to u? i mean it can really b cruel to a person. ie--lower ur immune system so that u can catch whatever the latest nasty is flyin around. it can throw u into a fit of asshole-ism. put u in such a fowl state of mind that all living things avoid u like plague. cause weakness and defeat to the point of blubbering like a baby. change ur outlook to utter negativity. cause total loss of motivation. .......wow, stress really, really sucks. so much so that from now on i may just start wishing the worse case of stress EVER on my enemies. >:)

honestly, im not stressed. anymore. that is my point. i took my day off as my day off. no errands, cooking or wedding shit. *deep breath* ahh. ive let my mind wonder and even completely blank out. which leads me to the random thoughts..........

where the hell do the birds go during winter?
y doesnt the grass fall out and blow away like the leaves do on the trees in autumn?
y the fuck cant my neighbors pick their fuckin trash up instead of lettin it blow in my yard?
what happened to all the chocolate that was in this house?
mmmm, fried chicken.
gawd! i have to start my long week tomorrow.
the bedroom smells really good. (sidenote: i scrubbed the walls/dusted)
it is sooooo warm today.
y cant laundry fold itself?
i really want to take a nap, i wish i could go to sleep!
daytime television blows balls.
i wonder if they actually fired that nurse today.
i cant wait for my weekend off.---woohoo, that means its almost payday!
there aint shit on this box either.
enough is enough, im goin back to sucky tv.

OLD SCHOOL

whatever happened to these words n phrases???

conniption fit
fuddy duddy
thats whack!
thats tight
madder than a wet hen
peeved
im so mad i could spit nails!
worthless as tits on a boar hog
fuckin a-right
fubar
holy cow!
slicker than snot on a doorknob
awesome

anyone else have some old school sayings? :D also....can anyone think of a yellow food item that is NOT sticky???

Hey Ya'll

Hey everyone! I just wanted to apologize for not posting in awhile. I have been so busy with work and my relationship that I haven't found much time to do anything. I have missed everyone so much and I hope to talk to yall soon. I have got published again. I am so excited. For everyone that knows my first and last name feel free to go to poetry.com. You will see the new poem there. I will keep in touch. ~CHICA~

OLD GHOSTS

so im braving the freezer like conditions of the upstairs to fuck around on this box. im logged into my yahoo messenger and im doin research on beach towels and loans when i get an IM. its the x and he tells me that he has been in contact with a high school friend of mine---rachel. he tells me shes livin in ohio and that she misses me, i should get in touch with her. i ask how the hell he "ran into" her and he tells me thru myspace......hmm. he signs off and im left with this information.

lets go back in time shall we?.......back in hs rachel, tiffany, nicole and i were inseperable. then one day shortly after graduation i had a nasty car accident. this prevented me from goin off to college at the same time as the rest of them, and in fact once i was able to go off i withdrew myself due to mental, physical and personal strain. its not like i expected us to all remain as close as we were in hs, but i thought some basic communication and a few visits etc. would keep our friendships at least breathing. well, i must have been waaaaay outta line b/c that is not what happened at all. we all did different things, moved away or back w/e and the effort didnt exist---at least not on their part. oh well, i stopped my efforts no matter how small when i wasnt getting any response. so yrs go by and turns out i moved back to ohio and one day c rachel workin in a store im at. we give each other a quick low down and she gives me her #. i dont call her---thats my fault but heres my reasoning.....u dont walk away from someone u care about, drop ALL communication, blow back into their life and expect things to b the same as b4. nor should u expect them to feel comfortable enough to pick up the phone and start chatting away with all their personal details when u were the one that dropped them. the way i c it is if rachel or tiffany or nicole miss our friendship and wanna try to get together again then they need to put forth a little more effort. not me.

fast forward to today---im not bitter over the situation, no matter how this comes across. we all grow up, mature, take on different responsibilities, move, etc. what amazes me about this is that rachel has proceeded to talk with my fucking X HUSBAND about me. the girl knows what town i live in. she even knows my last name, and if she doesnt im sure she could just fuckin ask my x and hed tell her. is it really that hard to dial 411 and ask for my listing? ---that is, if she really said she missed me. they act like they cant approach me, and maybe thats the guilt gettin to em but fuck. im not such a bitch that i dont understand and wont forgive them. does that mean we just pick up where we left off yrs ago? hell no, but im willing to listen. gawd, hoochie mama and i have kept a friendship while shes been in school and i havent even known her half as long as i have rachel n them. puts things into perspective doesnt it? yeah, thats what i thought.

i fully believe god puts ppl in ur life for however long for a reason. and i fully believe that all things happen for a reason, even if u cant figure out the reason at the moment. im wondering what reason it is that i keep hearing rachels name. it seems that inadvertantly she keeps popping into my life...........................

DO THE WORLD A FAVOR AND....

go fuck urself.
stop talking.
lock urself in a closet.
drive into a tree.
slit ur throat.
pretend u dont know me.
get a dictionary.
do ur damn job.
leave.
fall into a hole.
get mauled by deer.
butt fuck urself with a knife.
tear ur arm off and beat urself with it.
get on some drugs.
go to hell.
suck donkey balls.
kick ur own ass.
stop trying to think.
piss off.

well...........what the fucks up? alot and if i cared to relive the bullshit goin on at work id share the stories but i dont so u just have to live with the curiosity. pfft! i cant stress enough that its fucked up when ppl dont do their job---this statement also pertains to my personal life. i had to call the mortgage company AGAIN to try and fix what the dipshit i talked to the FIRST time failed to tell me. then it dawned on me that i shouldnt have even needed to make these phone calls but oh yes, its b/c the crackhead attorney wont return my messages that i have to play attorney as well. do u believe ive been tryin to get ahold of him for over a month? pfft. i think anything short of storming into his office with a shotgun now would prove to b futile. and then i hear that the title to the xs car WASNT mailed to the address i gave them but to a different address. gawd. if i had the money id start suing ppl for their idiocy. u think id make any money??? mmmhahaha >:)

so all this idiocy has my sense of humor out of whack. i had a res. who asked me to scratch their chin like i would a sheep. i cracked up and then laughed so hard i teared up when i told it to t. i know its senseless, but i still giggle when i think about it. where in the hell would ANYONE come up with "scratch it like u would a sheep"? and then i start thinking has this person spent alot of time scratchin some sheep or what? oh! and what if "scratch the sheep" is a dirty metaphor? oh god...........

Here lately there have been a few words I like to say.

grumpy.
poop.
boomerang.
throttle.
chalk.
piledriver.
spoon.

That concludes the recent list of words I like to say. Thank you for watching. Even if it was through the curians you sick little piggy.

I am still around!

Ok, so I haven't posted lately. OOPPSSS. I have been really busy with work and other things. How has everyone been? I just got my new internet service today and its much fasted then the other guy. Well, I will talk to ya'll later. Have a good night!

STORY TIME

yeah, i know its been awhile yet again. i have no apologies, ive been in the real world. i have a few juicy stories for u though. hehe first, lemme tell u the conclusion to "i pay dues".....after aquiring account info i proceeded to pay off the xs car and the fuckin parking ticket. incase y'all thought i was goin to consult him on this matter u were wrong. i took the information i had in my hot little hands and ran with it. everything was paid and cleared b4 i even told him what happened. (which made me feel a little evil and giddy :) ) so yay! its all taken care of and its one less thing i have to deal with now.

soooo juicy news at work---first, theres been a firing! yes, one of the dipshits on days have gotten their just desserts. supposedly our don was just goin to give this person a warning but said person "went off" and told the don to suck a big fuckin hairy dick. it was then that the don fired them. dont know how true this rumor is, but the point is that they r gone.

secondly, i worked with one of my "fav" co-workers the other nite. (did u read sarcasm there? if not pls do so) she was only workin 4hrs and proceeded to take a break at 430. i was finishing up a bedbath, no big deal. well call lights were goin off like crazy on the hall come 505. shes no where to b found....i storm down to the dining rm and ask where the hell everyone is at cause im gettin bombarded and need a break. shes still no where to b found, so an aide from the other hall comes to help---thank god. then i go to lunch and come back 30min later to find said person, the unit mgr, the evening mgr and another aide all sittin on their asses in the dining rm while yet more lights r goin off down the hallway. hmm, must b fuckin nice to not do shit the last hour ur on duty. wish i could get away with that.

thirdly, this happened last wk to me....im doin rounds, check a certain resident, they r dry but screaming, i tell the nurse, shes fine with the situation so i move on. come out to have the same evening mgr yell at me that said resident doesnt like to sit in wet. well no fuckin shit lady. i just came out of that rm not 5min ago. which i tell her. next thing i know the don is havin a "little talk" with me about how to take care of this resident. i tell her the same damn story i told my nurse, and the mgr. i suppose i should b thankful the don didnt write me up cause apparently when this mgr tattle tales no questions r asked.---i do my job well, i go beyond the call of duty often and if i fuck up im the first to admit i was wrong but i did nothing wrong. my nurse even talked to the don about the situation saying that this mgr was way outta line. at least she stood up for me. pfft!

aside from the tattle taling goin on, we've still got the ppl who dont want to work--even a new aide with 15yrs experience has everyone bitchin about her. whatta shame. nothing in life is free, and if u dont want to bust ass, especially in this field, get the fuck out. how much simpler can it b??? the wk has been long for me, workin with fucktards, the call lights, the call offs, the bullshit, the threat of state walkin in. im hopin that having the last 2 days off will give me the refresher i need to handle the next wk.

everything else is just peachy. and hoochie mama.....kevin and maxine huh? i think they love to hate each other, t and i rnt like that. we found a zodiac book yesterday that i think explains us pretty damn well. hahaha in short it says---hes a controlling, manipulating evil bitch and im a stubborn, money grubbing, bitch with a 5yr cycle. ask t bout it. lmao :)

Revelation!

I thought of something while I was putting off doing my work and watching Living Single. Tasha and Tim are like Maxine and Kyle. *giggles* It's sad that I understand them so much better after realizing that. Oy vey. I think maybe I need sleep. *starts singing* "who needs sleep? No you're never gonna get it. Who needs sleep? oh what's that for?" *tries to remember Tim's song that was so funny* wow i think i am ADD like major right now and like not tired at all! and i have stuff to do tomorrow and i should work on it but i don't want to. Why can't what we have to do be fun?

I PAY DUES

so a few wks ago my x calls and leaves me a message askin for help. help with getting a payoff for the car. well, at first hearing this i was pissed. how dare he ask me for help when hes done nothing for me. ie--get me my moms stuff. i talk this over with angie. she helped me come to the conclusion that by helping him i help myself. no more late car payments, no more dealing with the bank calling, etc. hmmm, she had a point. he called again this last wednesday.....not only does he want help with the car, he needs help with his bank account too. come to find out he never took my name off his account. wow--and not wow as in im goin shopping. anyhoo i start asking him for basic information and he doesnt have it with him. ughhhh if u want my fuckin help y rnt u prepared?? i shoulda known........anyhoo, do u know how hard it is to get information when u dont remember ur last known address or even if hes changed it or answers to secret questions that u didnt set up or r basically flying by the seat of ur ass???? well after playing the part of the "stupid wife whos silly husband usually takes care of this and has left w/o tellin her a thing" i got what i needed. and now i can play the part of the responsible adult whos taking care of her x husband. .........the conclusion to this story coming soon.

i will give him some credit though.....at least hes wanting to pay off the car instead of blowin the money. :)

THE TRUTH

the other nite t and i got into a discussion about my friend angie. she always asks her hubby if its okay with him b4 she goes out. she'll ask him if he's got anything else goin on or if he cares....which inevitably he doesnt but i dont do that sort of thing with t. i told him that i will NEVER ask permission to go do my thing. this ofcourse gets him fired up. he cs it as a sign of respect between the 2 of them and says it troubles him that i wouldnt respect him enough to do the same. its one thing for me to say hey im goin out with so-n-so, its something else for me to ask if i can. the conversation then proceeds to get into what if he didnt tell me who hes goin out with and where and then comes home smellin like perfume. BUT the reason he smells like perfume is b/c one of his friends had his gf tag along and she was wearing a strong perfume. hmmm, well ive never experienced a scent transfer unless me or the other person were rubbin up on each other. whole other issue there, the point is that if he didnt tell me basic info to begin with i would jump to conclusions when he got home. i told him that i believe its a universal truth among chics that no matter how "cool" ur gf may b there will b a part of her that will always wanna get catty when she hears about another chic. now whether or not she acts on it is the determining factor as to how "cool" she is. ;) he thinks its a double standard that chics want to know all the details if their man is goin out but chics wont do the same. personally, i have NEVER grilled him about who he's with or where he's goin. have i in the past? with my x, hell yeah, but i had very good reason to b suspect and question the situation. do i think its a good idea to let ur significant other know whats up? OFCOURSE, id b pretty worried if i came home and t was gone with no note saying he went out. and i do the same for him. being respectful is different than being controlling.

Haven't been around to be Found!

So, like Tasha I have sheltered myself for awhile. On top of working all the time. Which is good because I have bills to pay. I have met someone that I really like. Thats about all the new news that there is. We have been dating sence before christmas. I will let everyone know how that turns out but no need to give out the details now. Thats about it. I am tired as hell and finding it hard to function.

THE SKY IS FALLING!

no the world is not really comin to an end and no hell is not freezing over. although according to one of my residents hell is actually cold instead of hot. (yes i have cold hands and yes i was trying to bathe this res. when this new info was found out. "ur hands r cold as hell!" lmao) anyhoo, im just posting again within a week, amazing i know. :) i have been secluding myself b/c im tired of ppl talking, tired of listening to it, tired of trying to look interested. yes, this is stemming from work. i am now workin with a lady who LOVES to talk. mind u, she is a good worker just my god u dont need to fill dead air space with something anything that pops into ur head just to have some noise! granted i get real talkative sometimes but for the most part im a quiet person and i enjoy the quiet. she had me sooo flustered the last few times ive worked with her that i needed to have complete peace n quiet at home too. i didnt answer the phone, didnt go anywhere, didnt do shit my last 2 days off......ahhh i feel better. u know she even found me workin on the opposite side of the building to talk to me. should i b somewhat flattered? maybe but id rather just keep my mouth shut on that one. ;) i know most conversations r about the trivial things in life--weather, bfs/gfs, work, dinner, etc. but really im not in the mood for trivial shit. i dont necessarily want mind blowing, stimulating convo either just dont come to me bitchin about some miners in a hole cause lemme tell u about my mom. or dont come to me being 30 something and bitching about how ur hubby is useless and u need a ride home "u know what im sayin?" god, if she says that again i cant b held accountable for what happens next! most of ppls problems r self induced and i hate it when ppl want to bitch about the shit they caused. thats my point. im sick of that shit. ugh. so u wanna talk about somethin real then fine, im here and listening but other than that........IM OUT OF SERVICE!

O K.........sorry bout that little rant, now onto my roll call. id like to c new posts from the rest of the ratpack!!! im gonna ask l if she got the invite for this thing if not today tomorrow (cause we're workin together! yay!). hopefully she didnt delete it and i can pressure her into makin her debut, hehe. :) but dont forget bitches, the rest of ya's can post!!!!!!! :-P

STOP THE MUSIC!

howdy y'all! yes, i know ive been slacking on the posting thing. what can i say? i have no good excuses, just livin in the real world tryin to get thru the holidays. speakin of...how was everyones christmas?? mine was great! puzzles, cds, dvds, games, jewelry, clothes, books....i cant pick a favorite gift i loved them all. i do want to review the cds i got though....

korn, fallout boy, will smith, and a homemade cd from angie. funny story bout korn is that my brother and t wanted it as well so i bought them both a copy. when we exchanged gifts, my bro got us a copy and then t opened his copy xmas mornin. then we go to t's gmas house and j is wearing the new korn shirt. i asked him what he got l for xmas and he said the new korn cd. between all of us i think we boosted their sales greatly. lol. anyhoo.........i love their song twisted transistor. the rest of the cd isnt bad to listen to either. fallout boy--well, they r like a combo of bands but im havin a hard time thinkin of which bands exactly. love the song dance dance. the other titles to their songs r fucked up--titles like "we had to change the title of this song cause our lawyer said to". what a mouth full! im really thrilled with wills cd, better than his last one. y'all may think hes weak or w/e but its MY guilty pleasure :-p this cd has some really good beats, personally i think he shoulda released party starter instead of switch but who am i to say. and finally my burned cd--its about "girl power", u know bein tough, kickin ass and not givin a shit. theres some old stuff on the disc--L7, pat benetar, joan jett, etc. good stuff. :)

while im on this subject i watched a vh1 list a few wks back. it was about the top worse dirty songs ever. i laughed my ass off and was surprised all at the same time. then i got to thinkin there were a few songs i woulda put on the list myself. so....in no particular order (btw, if u have any to add feel free)

push it--salt n peppa
my body--lsg
c'mon ride the train--quad city djs
touch it--monifa
how many licks--lil kim
doin it--llcoolj
slow motion--juvenile
shake ur rump--wrex n effex
cradle of love--billy idol--pretty sure any of his other songs could b added ;)
shook me all nite long--ac/dc
throb--janet jackson
little red corvette--princes

......aight, thats enough of my input. funny, some of these songs were really popular, i even like 'em! cant believe they played em at our school dances! hahaha dirty birds! :)