Nothing New

Well, there is nothing new going on here. Work is work and school is approaching quickly. However, I can't wait for it to start. I think my friend from Germany will be coming to see me next year and I can't wait to see him. We talk often and we have discussed him coming. So we will see. The only thing coming up to really brag about at this point is my birthday on the 22nd of September. I can't wait. I will be 22 and I have to work and have class on that day. What fuckin luck. Anyway, I have decided to go to church twice a week instead of once. I feel much better when I go and I have a sence of pride. Oh, I almost forgot. Tasha, remember what we had talked about when I was there? I go Friday. Wish me luck. The rest of you will know what and when afterwards. I think anyway! Well, the time has come. My lil brother has gotten his permit. Stay off the roads!!! JK! He is a good driver and I wish him the best of luck. Today was his first day of school and I wish him luck. I hope he does well. My sister went on her cruze with her boyfriend on Sunday and she should be back home on Saturday. I can't wait to see her. I miss her. I hope she has a nice time. My grandma should be comin here on the 6th. YEAH! I can't wait. I have the up most respect for her. I love her very much and I am so excited to see her.

school ramblings

Oy I don't know where to begin except that I want to sleep for like 5 years. School started on omnday but last week I was good and went to visit my cooperating teacher on tuesday and saw the first 3 days of classes. The only thing that worries me is that I will be trying to teach in a block and that means that classes last for almost an hour and a half. Even I get bored sitting in class for that long. It is killer. I so hate school. I am going to lower the number of times I go though cause I need like 6 hours a week and right now i am doing like 8. However the nice thing is even though I get up at 6:30 (A.M. for all of you who know me too well) I am done with classes by 2 at the latest. Of course I take myself a nap and then can't sleep at night. Not that I could anyway because we live by 2 sets of train tracks and since it takes me an hour to fall asleep there is no way I can go to sleep without a train coming and scaring me.
So I finally go get a pass so I can park legally and then what do I do? I park where I am not supposed to and I get a ticket. I swear when I have blonde moments they are so fucking blonde you wouldn't believe I could ever be smart.
My math courses are gonna kick my ass and my other teaching course is going to make me do like fifty million things. So if I sound loopy ever, that's why. I just wish I could redo the week before school started so I could drink more. 2 parties in one week.... oh I wish I could afford liquor. Anyway I think that's my cue to go get food and hope that food helps me not fall asleep. Oh yeah I should share this cool thing I learned... if you eat you have energy to do stuff and if you don't then you have no energy and you try to run on air and water and you fail miserably.

BS

well well well....its been awhile! lets c.......y'all read mandys post. just for the record we watched sin city. it was bad ass!!

i also had a bit of a mood problem. for anyone thats ever been married u may b able to relate.....u c even though my x caused me many tears i still believed he was the one. and now being divorced and givin it another go with someone new.....well i felt like i was cheating him out of what i felt with my x just cause i had it in my head that the great one only happens once. even though i am smarter than to believe that its impossible to find someone better. know what i mean??? point is is that i havent been puttin forth much effort cause of this lil stigma and i would probably feel this way forever no matter what til i let my defenses down and start truly believing otherwise. so after much writing, a couple of phone calls, and some time to myself my plan is to spend more time and energy on my new relationship. me worrying about cheating him out of emotions is in itself preventing me from enjoying whats in front of me. duh. lol ----sorry t bout the emotional relapse.

work is work. still low census....which sorta sucks cause that means we get extra days off. sooo if any of y'all r lookin to put granny and pops in a home....... one of my fav nurses keeps havin this lil ol' man hit on her. hes like 90 yrs old!! the other nite he told her that if she was interested in having sex with him to just give him a call. lmao. i told her she has to stop talking to ANY of the resident's family members. can u imagine??? ew!

been having terrible headaches lately. hopefully i can get into the chiropractor later today. tim felt along my spine last nite and theres an actual gap where i have a vertebrae out. yeah, that feels kinda gross.

on a sidenote......as ive been sitting here typing this out i have been hearing a mouse or maybe mice scurrying along inside the wall behind the computer. i clean ALL the time and havin mice and creepy crawly things around makes me feel dirty! (and not in a good way ;) ) guess ill b makin a phone call to the land lord, wish me luck.

Great Stuff!

I got to see Tasha this weekend. It was great. I missed her so much. We had a lot of catching up to do. We talked about the holidays coming up and hopefully we will be going out and doing something for just about all of them like we did the previous year. Oh, and I just thought, it would be our ONE YEAR aniversary in October! HELL YEAH!!!! So, maybe we can get more pictures this year and hopefully show up last year, as far as halloween goes. No deffinate plans yet but we did think that instead of a theme we would just do free for all. Go as what we wanted too. Like I said, it up in the air but I am sure we will keep everyone posted. I am also writing a new story for my site. I let Tasha read the end of Deception and the begining of the new one cleverly entitled Blind Folded Love! Ya'll will have to check it out. We also watched a movie. It was good. I liked it. Different but I liked it. She was having some trouble with her pc then too. I hope she got things worked out. I think I have filled everyone in on the scoop now. If I didn't say everything I am sure Tasha will clue ya'll in.

hoochie mama got to play

So yeah my fling and I had been talkin for a while and we talk some more today. He askes if he can come over... which really should have been cum. For some crazy reason I gave him my address. I must add another first to my list and for some reason I am like embarassed about this one. Actually technically it is like a whole lotta firsts. It was nice to be touched again... but now I smell like him. But I so wanna play again like now...

I LOVE MY RATPACK!!!!

I have to things to say people!!!!!

1.) I LOVE MY RATPACK, nothing like a group of friends that stick together. I don't think their has ever been a closer group of friends. Its like we are all blood related and we all know blood is thicker than water.

2.) When you corner rats, you get attacked. Rats only take so much. Thats like putting a rat underneith a bucket and heating it. If you leave them alone you wouldn't have to worry about the strike but play with fire, well, I will leave you to what happens. Your best bet is to leave with your tail between your legs. You may have to swallow your pride but atleast you will still have a tail.

Thanx guys! Only true friends, open mindedness, and maturity stands above the rest and I am sure everyone knows what happens when you stand above the rest. Just like a bird in the sky, you get shit/pissed on.

GAWWWWD!!!!!!!

cheese n rice ppl!!! heres my take.......
is chicas actions typical of a woman? no
is chicas actions considered to b ladylike and conformed to society? no
can chicas actions b percieved as whore-ish? yes
does that make chica a whore? no
do any of u really know how long its been since chicas last fuck? no
does that make a difference? in this case, yes.
would it matter if she were a guy doin this? yes, then no one would care

too often ppl make things their business that they have no business getting involved in. granted we here in the rat pack post things about our lives that leave u with the power of discretion. that being said, if we post facts about ourselves that we dont really want to feel the ridicule from then stop posting those type of things. secondly, it wouldnt hurt our readers to b a lil more open minded and take into consideration that u may not have the entire story to make ur judgements on. and as always......it is NOT a bad thing for a woman to express herself sexually, to b forthcoming that indeed we do like to have sex and can/will get ours. there is no rule that says women have to b and act a certain way when it comes to sex, thats societys doings. times change and change is good!!

oh yeah and by the way

I am living with a lesbian and the straightest girl ever.... This is going to be a weird year.....

Just so anonymous knows....

Whore-

1. A prostitute.
2. A person considered sexually promiscuous.
3. A person considered as having compromised principles for personal gain.

Tramp-

1. 1. A prostitute.
   2. A person regarded as promiscuous.

Slut-

1. 1. A woman considered sexually promiscuous.
   2. A woman prostitute.

I just wanted to point out that these are all the same so you are being redundant. And that she is not a prostitute and she isn't promiscous, which since I am sure you are a moron...

promiscuous-

1. Having casual sexual relations frequently with different partners; indiscriminate in the choice of sexual partners.
2. Lacking standards of selection; indiscriminate.
3. Casual; random.
4. Consisting of diverse, unrelated parts or individuals.

She may like having sex and she may have sex with more than one person, but she is very picky. And just having sex does not make someone promiscuous or even multiple times. Plus if she were a guy we wouldn't even be having this talk. You would probably fucking congradulate her... errr...him. So therefore she isn't promiscuous and thus not a tramp slut or whore. So now if you would stop and grow up then maybe we can use this for intelligent or amusing things instead of childish nonsense. And if that didn't work for you just fuck off!

Ain't It Funny

Ain't it funny how many fuckin pussies are in the world. Those who can't fucking stand up for themselves and hide in the shadows to try to hide from their own misery. Yet, these are the people who are such miserable pieces of shit that condem others and try to belittle them because it makes them feel so much better about themselves. It helps them concel the pain and for just brief moments it keeps them from thinkin about killin themselves because they know there is nowhere else to go but with the trigger. See, what keeps your sane mister or miss anonymous is trying to convict others of your dark and mindless deeds when really, all of us that read your reguritated words disreguard them because we know that you are already dead. See fundling my trigger from far away is silly. Especially when you know your standing in front of my untimely volcano. So, advice for the cowardly, save your poor fingers from typing and your mind from confussion. Lava is very hot. You don't want to get burned. You shouldn't pervoke a time bomb. You never know when its going to go off. Now, to clear up these nasty little rumors. First, there is no disease so please. No need to pass on your sickness. Whore? HAHAHA! You make me laugh. What defines a whore? And please give some intelligent answer. Childs play bores me. As far as the fat thing, you are on your own. Nothing you say really matters to me. It gives me and the rest of the world a good laugh but its not because we all agree with you love. Its because we are laughing at your immaturity. Please, adults act more civil than that. We don't name call. We grew up past school age children. Perhaps you should try the same thing yourself. It wouldn't hurt. It would actually do you some good. Again, when you wave the red flag in front of the bull, its only a matter of seconds before it charges and you never know when. Now, please don't confuse the volcano and the ragin bull as threats. They are merely facts. I try to keep the piece. Perhaps you should learn from your mistakes instead of trying to prove to the world that you are a mistake. Tusch!

AND ANOTHER ONE....LIST THAT IS

Shit thats annoying which ends up pissing u off.

1. ppl who rnt original.

2. when ur being an ass to someone and they dont get it.

3. like having someone like repeat a "catch phrase" like alot

4. having to stroke someones ego

5. my x..... :D

6. gas goin up and up and up

7. little kid toys with sirens and whistles and shit

8. ppl who dont at least go as fast as the posted speed limit

9. not remembering where u put that xtra 10 bucks at

10. any and all fucktards....if u dont know if ur a fucktard, ur probably a fucktard

Lyrics I wish I could say in the Real World

Here is another list. This list, obviously, is a list of lyrics I wish I could say in the real world. Not of which are in any particular order.

1.) I want to fuck you like an animal: Wait, I have used that

2.) Just put it in my mouth: Damnit, I have used that too

3.) Lines on your face, don't bother me: I have deffinately used that one. I tend to date older than I

4.) You and me baby ain't nothing but mammals so lets do it like they do on the discovery channel: I believe I have used that one too, shit

5.) Your so easy: Only afterwards, u don't want to say that if you are trying to get a piece, right fella's!

6.) Make me SCREAM: God I love Billy Idol and yes, I have used that line too

7.) Flesh for Fantansy: I have never used this one but a couple of lays was like a good fantasy

8.) Ahh Push It,ppppush it real good: Memories, of just a few months ago, LOL

9.) You make me fuckin sick to my stomach, everytime I think of you I puke: I told the guy I am no longer with that believe it or not.

10.) I love the way you look ast me, I love way you slap my ass, I love the dirty things you do, I have control of you: Damnit, I believe all of these have come it to play atleast once. Oh well.

FYI, just for the record I haven't had sex in a month. I am doing well. Thank u thank u. I have not want too. Well, thats mainly because my batteries haven't died yet. LMAO, it would be even funnier if it weren't true. FUCK IT!!!

Hell Yeah, Turn It Up!!!!!

FUCK YEAH BABY, Velvet Revolver and Chevelle kicked ass in concert. OMFG!! It was so amazing I would do it again in a heart beat. Ya'll missed an awesome concert. Nothing really new in my neck of the woods. I have been sick lately and I feel stiff. I am hoping its just the flu. I also have a doctors appt tomorrow. I might have so news from that so stay tuned. Other than that, not a fucking thing. I aced one of my exams and got a B on the other. Over all I think I should have about a 3.7 GPA. Give or take. So, I will talk to everyone later. I miss ya.

:)

id just like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUD!!! HAVE A GREAT DAY!!! love ya! :D :D :D

I ACCEPT UR CHALLENGE!!

2 more lists eh??? heres one......Lyrics i wish i could say in the real world........(in no particular order)

1. bitch, im back to ballin....like i fell off.

2. ima porno flick, im like amazing grace.....

3. Did you think I wouldn't pay ya back Your a bitch for the way you act

4. Beware, cuz I crush anything I land on Me here, aint no mistake nigga it was planned on

5. I'm fly enough, to do better, But pimp enough to not give a fuck,

6. Now the quietest noise i'm told Is the sound of letting go.

7. U don't have 2 watch dynasty 2 have an attitude

8. We get loose in this motherfucker

9. Running your bitch faster then the Road Runner

10. Leave you kinda startled like the funk off of fritos

LMAO!!! :D bonus points for whoever can name the song title and artist ;)

So, i've noticed alot of lists popping up, so i figured "hey, i should make one." But then i realized i'm a non-conformist by nature and said "fuck it." And yes, in case you're wondering, i did have this conversation out loud. But i would like to say that i too have goals, some of which are really outrageous. There are a couple of which i'm working on right now even. So i think these lists are really good for you. they help to keep you focused and give insight to all your freinds about what kind of person you really are. With that having been said, i'll make my list later. As for now, it's late, i've just worked way too many hours for one day, and i'm going to bed.

THINGS THAT MAKE YA GO.........EW!

1. i was off yesterday and when i got home from c'in angie i decided to channel surf. i ended up watchin vh1. i have to admit that i sorta like those lame lists they always have, but last nite's episode was about "celebrity religion". i was instantly intrigued........then i was disgusted. what pissed me off was that there were celebs spending shit tons of cash on jeweled crosses and jesus heads. (over the top jeweled, grosstesquely flamboyant) to top it off celebs r makin an accessory out of the cross and basically any other religious figure. u know, if ur strong in ur faith and u want to witness for jesus, amen to ya. but ur supposed to b humble in every aspect, ur His servant not his fuckin PR coordinator. UGH!!

2. its kinda sick when u hear about a 27yr old fuckin someone old enough to b their grandma. (dont ask, u dont want to know!)

3. havin angie tell me that her hubby asks her when shes "not heavy" during her period so that he can get his groove on.

4. havin angie's mom refer to puttin a big sheet of plastic on the floor and using crisco.

5. having a resident ask me if i use my nails as weapons or as sex toys....and them sayin, oh yeah u use em as sex toys!

6. my neighbors. (enough said)

7. giving birth out ur ass. (if y'all dont know what i mean by this.....um ur retarded)

8. this huge ass crusty bug that flew into my windshield and is now stuck there. and no the windshield wipers did NOT take it off!!

9. rollin over into the wet spot.

10. c'in bigger chics wear things "less than flattering" while tryin to shop in wally world. not that wal-mart is high class, but i still dont want to c ur rolls.

Catching up

So Friday I move all my shit from Mount Vernon to Ravenna. It wasn't too bad. A lot of it was still in boxes. However I did kind of forget where i was moving into so i got lost trying to get there. Moving in wasn't too bad either. What killed me though was putting my fucking desk together. My goodness did they really need to make it that complicated. my tv stand and lamp just screwed together and my fucking desk you have to try to put screws in a corner bracket towards the back and not only that but you have to have like perfect vision cause it has to be in a little hole too. I finally figured out the best way when i was like fucking done. Stupid bastards.
On saturday I went to put in bay with a friend for her bachelorette party. It was so fun. Details though are going to remain private except that if you are going to drink too much you really shouldn't get on a ferry. I think y'all can figure out the rest of my night. But i finally feel better and lay down then my friend sits next to me and starts moving all around and I say things like "I feel like I am on the fucking ferry again" and "If you keep doing that I will need to take a dramamine."
I finally finished putting shit together and decorating yesterday. I sitll have a few things to do and i have to decide what to do with boxes but i mean i am basically done. I like it too althoguh i am a little mad that the carpet is quite brown and i hate black and brown together but hey it ain't like i knew and even if i did i would still want black so oh well.
Oh yeah and I feel like I should make a list to do before I die but I need to think more about that one so a little later.

WEEKEND FUN

GUESS WHAT!?!?! i got a serious urge to get more ink this weekend. it was so bad that i didnt want to do anything else til i drove by the tat parlor to c if they were open. and they were!!! so i had to pull in. im considering this tattoo my "spontaneous" one. everyone gets tats for different reasons.....my first tat came about cause i had wanted one when i was 14 and mom said i was too young then. when i turned 17 she signed for me. i had 3 long yrs to pick somethin out and i choose a lizard. a salamander to b exact.....i took a nature book in and had the artist draw it out for me. i think everyone who has tats has something of a similar story for their first tat. then theres always the spur of the moment, "i was drunk" kind of tat. hence my spontaneous tattoo! (but i was NOT drunk....a good tat parlor wont pierce or tattoo u if uve been drinkin) then when i get my carnation/butterfly drawn up just right i will have the "in memory/meaningful" tattoo, plus itll b the tattoo that i draw myself. and that will kill 2 birds with one stone. after that one, im pretty sure i wont need anymore. i dont want to b inked all over.....thats just not very girly! so y'all probably want to know what it is??? its a band of tribal, but it doesnt have those sharp lines to it, its got curves and swirls and in the middle of the band i had the artist put a butterfly. its all done in blue/black tones and its across my lower back. :) :) :) im tickled.

then today tim and i went to the zoo. i havent decided if i think the zoo is cool or a sad place to b. we were walkin thru the reptile exhibit and i saw a cage for some kind of snake. cant remember now what it was, but it was red toned. the cutesy factoid next to it read that if it were in its natural habitat it would spend most of its life under water. then i looked in its cage and all they had for the poor animal was a small, shallow pan of water. what bullshit! we kept walkin and dodging overly excited 6yr olds.........we came upon the monkey exhibit. they werent doin ANYTHING!! they were just layin around in the shade sleepin. tim said that he would b doin the same thing considering it was so muggy out. disappointing.....no shit throwin monkeys today. but they had babies so that almost makes up for it. i was lookin forward to the tigers and lions....and the zoo came up short again. only 2 female lions, one tiger. maybe sundays rnt the days to go to c the animals?!? i still enjoyed gettin out.....................

speakin of out.....tim and i have tickets to go c cirque de soleil on the 20th. if u dont know what that is, well its opera (think enigma style) that has acrobatics and gymnastics and weird stuff "acting" out the story they r singing. http://www.cirquedesoleil.com im sooo excited!!

enough bout me, how bout y'alls weekend???

Insight

I am so excited for summer quarter to be just about over. I have finals next wens. I believe I will have an A in a class and a B in the other. I am pating myself on the back. I have also decided to go to church. I went to dinner with a friend from work this past sunday at her church. There was a little service and dinner obviously. It was so nice and welcoming. So I agreed to go this sunday night. Hopefully I get something out of it. I think I will. I believe, so, thats all I need right? Anyhoo, I am going to a concert next friday, the velvet revolver and chevelle concert. I think I will be pretty kick ass. I will keep ya'll posted. Other than that I am really not sure what to say. I don't do a whole lot. I keep things simple and still to myself for the most part.

List of Things to do before I die!!! Of course this is not all!

All right, here is my things to do before I die. Like Tasha, these are in no particular order nor is this all things.

1. Graduate from college: come on 2008, RN

2. Own a house

3. Have a German Shepard: pure bred

4. Buy a new car

5. Get a few more tats

6. Go to Europe: particularly the UK and Germany

7. Publish a book: I write poetry

8. Go white water rafting

9. Go parasailing

10. Complete Maslow's hierarchy of needs

CHECK LIST

i dont really have anything useful to talk about, dont really have anything to bitch about either. i could make some shit up............but i think ill just make a list.....lets c, lets c. what kind of list, hmmm...........oh! i got it!!

Things I Want To Do B4 I Die: (in no particular order)

1. tip a cow---i know, how ridiculous but its my list so screw u.

2. kiss the blarney stone---im irish, its my right.

3. go skinny dippin---dont laugh i have never done it!! :-p

4. sky dive---but i want it to b a tandem jump.

5. go someplace tropical---yes, i need a real vacation.

6. own a big truck---not sure y, just do.

7. own a house---b/c its better than renting, duh!

8. c a fortune teller---i find it fascinating and im curious.

9. achieve my goals

10. learn to tap dance---cause i still remember puttin my dress shoes on when i was little and clickety clackin all over grandmas floor.

ofcourse i have more than 10 things to get done but this is sufficient for tonite. feel free to share ur "to-do's"........

MISSING IN ACTION

so im a little perturbed. i know y'all probably think im always pissed off in one way or the other, but sharing happy stories isnt quite as entertaining as the angry ones! ;) i was off yesterday and i was all excited thinkin i was gonna get to have a "girly day" with my friend angie. now i say girly but i dont mean get ur hair and nails done....i mean hang out together, get lunch, etc. she calls me at like 4 or 5pm tellin me she forgot she had a doctors appt. ok i understand i guess, but wouldnt u remember a doc appt??? i felt disrespected and annoyed and so when she asked me if i still wanted to hang out i told her i had other things to get done. she apologized and she feels bad but damn!! then theres chica, which tryin to get ahold of her is like tryin to spot UFOs. u could b sittin there for minutes, hours even days b4 u c any signs of activity. i dont understand how u can say u miss hangin out with someone and then not make the effort. or toss around the fact that "i have a life outside the ratpack!"---how insulting is that??? as if my whole life revolves around tryin to get ahold of and hang out with u! i love ya, but if u dont have time for me i dont have time for u.......fuck off. maybe ud have a lil more time if ur whole life didnt revolve around tryin to find the next dick to ride!?! just a thought. in conclusion......much more of this shit and ill b takin applications for replacements.......................................

on a lighter note---hoochiemama, thanks for c'ing me thru my "urge"....LMAO! had a good time playin on the swing sets. :D