Revelation!

I thought of something while I was putting off doing my work and watching Living Single. Tasha and Tim are like Maxine and Kyle. *giggles* It's sad that I understand them so much better after realizing that. Oy vey. I think maybe I need sleep. *starts singing* "who needs sleep? No you're never gonna get it. Who needs sleep? oh what's that for?" *tries to remember Tim's song that was so funny* wow i think i am ADD like major right now and like not tired at all! and i have stuff to do tomorrow and i should work on it but i don't want to. Why can't what we have to do be fun?

I PAY DUES

so a few wks ago my x calls and leaves me a message askin for help. help with getting a payoff for the car. well, at first hearing this i was pissed. how dare he ask me for help when hes done nothing for me. ie--get me my moms stuff. i talk this over with angie. she helped me come to the conclusion that by helping him i help myself. no more late car payments, no more dealing with the bank calling, etc. hmmm, she had a point. he called again this last wednesday.....not only does he want help with the car, he needs help with his bank account too. come to find out he never took my name off his account. wow--and not wow as in im goin shopping. anyhoo i start asking him for basic information and he doesnt have it with him. ughhhh if u want my fuckin help y rnt u prepared?? i shoulda known........anyhoo, do u know how hard it is to get information when u dont remember ur last known address or even if hes changed it or answers to secret questions that u didnt set up or r basically flying by the seat of ur ass???? well after playing the part of the "stupid wife whos silly husband usually takes care of this and has left w/o tellin her a thing" i got what i needed. and now i can play the part of the responsible adult whos taking care of her x husband. .........the conclusion to this story coming soon.

i will give him some credit though.....at least hes wanting to pay off the car instead of blowin the money. :)

THE TRUTH

the other nite t and i got into a discussion about my friend angie. she always asks her hubby if its okay with him b4 she goes out. she'll ask him if he's got anything else goin on or if he cares....which inevitably he doesnt but i dont do that sort of thing with t. i told him that i will NEVER ask permission to go do my thing. this ofcourse gets him fired up. he cs it as a sign of respect between the 2 of them and says it troubles him that i wouldnt respect him enough to do the same. its one thing for me to say hey im goin out with so-n-so, its something else for me to ask if i can. the conversation then proceeds to get into what if he didnt tell me who hes goin out with and where and then comes home smellin like perfume. BUT the reason he smells like perfume is b/c one of his friends had his gf tag along and she was wearing a strong perfume. hmmm, well ive never experienced a scent transfer unless me or the other person were rubbin up on each other. whole other issue there, the point is that if he didnt tell me basic info to begin with i would jump to conclusions when he got home. i told him that i believe its a universal truth among chics that no matter how "cool" ur gf may b there will b a part of her that will always wanna get catty when she hears about another chic. now whether or not she acts on it is the determining factor as to how "cool" she is. ;) he thinks its a double standard that chics want to know all the details if their man is goin out but chics wont do the same. personally, i have NEVER grilled him about who he's with or where he's goin. have i in the past? with my x, hell yeah, but i had very good reason to b suspect and question the situation. do i think its a good idea to let ur significant other know whats up? OFCOURSE, id b pretty worried if i came home and t was gone with no note saying he went out. and i do the same for him. being respectful is different than being controlling.

Haven't been around to be Found!

So, like Tasha I have sheltered myself for awhile. On top of working all the time. Which is good because I have bills to pay. I have met someone that I really like. Thats about all the new news that there is. We have been dating sence before christmas. I will let everyone know how that turns out but no need to give out the details now. Thats about it. I am tired as hell and finding it hard to function.

THE SKY IS FALLING!

no the world is not really comin to an end and no hell is not freezing over. although according to one of my residents hell is actually cold instead of hot. (yes i have cold hands and yes i was trying to bathe this res. when this new info was found out. "ur hands r cold as hell!" lmao) anyhoo, im just posting again within a week, amazing i know. :) i have been secluding myself b/c im tired of ppl talking, tired of listening to it, tired of trying to look interested. yes, this is stemming from work. i am now workin with a lady who LOVES to talk. mind u, she is a good worker just my god u dont need to fill dead air space with something anything that pops into ur head just to have some noise! granted i get real talkative sometimes but for the most part im a quiet person and i enjoy the quiet. she had me sooo flustered the last few times ive worked with her that i needed to have complete peace n quiet at home too. i didnt answer the phone, didnt go anywhere, didnt do shit my last 2 days off......ahhh i feel better. u know she even found me workin on the opposite side of the building to talk to me. should i b somewhat flattered? maybe but id rather just keep my mouth shut on that one. ;) i know most conversations r about the trivial things in life--weather, bfs/gfs, work, dinner, etc. but really im not in the mood for trivial shit. i dont necessarily want mind blowing, stimulating convo either just dont come to me bitchin about some miners in a hole cause lemme tell u about my mom. or dont come to me being 30 something and bitching about how ur hubby is useless and u need a ride home "u know what im sayin?" god, if she says that again i cant b held accountable for what happens next! most of ppls problems r self induced and i hate it when ppl want to bitch about the shit they caused. thats my point. im sick of that shit. ugh. so u wanna talk about somethin real then fine, im here and listening but other than that........IM OUT OF SERVICE!

O K.........sorry bout that little rant, now onto my roll call. id like to c new posts from the rest of the ratpack!!! im gonna ask l if she got the invite for this thing if not today tomorrow (cause we're workin together! yay!). hopefully she didnt delete it and i can pressure her into makin her debut, hehe. :) but dont forget bitches, the rest of ya's can post!!!!!!! :-P

STOP THE MUSIC!

howdy y'all! yes, i know ive been slacking on the posting thing. what can i say? i have no good excuses, just livin in the real world tryin to get thru the holidays. speakin of...how was everyones christmas?? mine was great! puzzles, cds, dvds, games, jewelry, clothes, books....i cant pick a favorite gift i loved them all. i do want to review the cds i got though....

korn, fallout boy, will smith, and a homemade cd from angie. funny story bout korn is that my brother and t wanted it as well so i bought them both a copy. when we exchanged gifts, my bro got us a copy and then t opened his copy xmas mornin. then we go to t's gmas house and j is wearing the new korn shirt. i asked him what he got l for xmas and he said the new korn cd. between all of us i think we boosted their sales greatly. lol. anyhoo.........i love their song twisted transistor. the rest of the cd isnt bad to listen to either. fallout boy--well, they r like a combo of bands but im havin a hard time thinkin of which bands exactly. love the song dance dance. the other titles to their songs r fucked up--titles like "we had to change the title of this song cause our lawyer said to". what a mouth full! im really thrilled with wills cd, better than his last one. y'all may think hes weak or w/e but its MY guilty pleasure :-p this cd has some really good beats, personally i think he shoulda released party starter instead of switch but who am i to say. and finally my burned cd--its about "girl power", u know bein tough, kickin ass and not givin a shit. theres some old stuff on the disc--L7, pat benetar, joan jett, etc. good stuff. :)

while im on this subject i watched a vh1 list a few wks back. it was about the top worse dirty songs ever. i laughed my ass off and was surprised all at the same time. then i got to thinkin there were a few songs i woulda put on the list myself. so....in no particular order (btw, if u have any to add feel free)

push it--salt n peppa
my body--lsg
c'mon ride the train--quad city djs
touch it--monifa
how many licks--lil kim
doin it--llcoolj
slow motion--juvenile
shake ur rump--wrex n effex
cradle of love--billy idol--pretty sure any of his other songs could b added ;)
shook me all nite long--ac/dc
throb--janet jackson
little red corvette--princes

......aight, thats enough of my input. funny, some of these songs were really popular, i even like 'em! cant believe they played em at our school dances! hahaha dirty birds! :)