LAST NERVE

well its been another long week and im not so sure theres relief in sight. friday it was me and one other aide for the ENTIRE upstairs floor for 4hrs. i wont rehash earlier in the week.....lets just say there was alot of caffeine, nicotine and chocolate. this weekend off was definitely not enough time away from that place. *sigh* i have to put on my happy face cause im training a newbie tomorrow. we have a hard enough time gettin help, wouldnt want to spoil her impression from the get go....besides she'll have it figured out in a couple of days. ;)

it becomes more and more apparent to me that some ppl really just have some kinda gall. for example---i have the wedding invitations done. they just need to b delivered. we've already decided that unless our guests r already married no one can bring dates. this seems to b causing a stir. the whole "but he/she's my bf/gf" or "but we really like each other". like i fuckin care if the 2 of u r in a relationship or just fuck buddies. ITS OUR WEDDING. WE DECIDE WHAT HAPPENS AND WHOS INVOLVED. if u dont like it then dont fuckin come, but dont piss and moan to me about it. furthermore, we're not made of money. we're not feeding the stray. which brings me to example #2---just b/c we drive decent cars and live in a nice house doesnt mean that we have money to spare. all it really means is that we can budget our money and we're responsible with how we live. it truly burns my ass that anyone would think that we live life on easy street around here. CAUSE WE DONT. or that--example #3---just b/c im in my mid 20's all i like to do is party. where the hell does that come from??? honestly, walk a day in my shoes with the experiences and choices ive had, made and live with. sorta makes me feel like the ppl that say that to me think i have that "young n dumb" disease. I WAS BORN AT NITE BUT NOT LAST NITE.

final thoughts on this phenomenon goin around---1. dont assume b/c ur friends with me im willing to compromise my standards, morals, ethics or the decisions i make. dont whine to me about my lack of compromise either. 2. dont assume anything about me period.

have a lovely fuckin day.