HARDY FUCKIN HAR

so this ones gonna b quick cause im due to go to physics......but i just wanted to say that angie sucks balls b/c she said she'd come out with me to celebrate my bday and then cancelled b/c a friend of her hubby's who cancelled on them decided to come visit anyways....pfft. i dont know how a person is supposed to approach a situation like this but any input would b appreciated b/c i feel that something needs to b said to her about how she acts and treats me. i thought we were best friends, maybe im wrong.

I Have NO Idea

i never mentioned that a couple of weeks ago i got a call from the PTA director at school, they had someone decline their spot and so i was next on the list. woohoo!! so ill start my program classes this summer. i can't wait for this quarter to b over and next week i get to register for more classes. ugh. whines...i wanna break. u know what i realized today.....i have an A in physics and a stupid B in english. duh. 'course there is only one essay and a few 5pt things turned in. theres only 4wks left in spring quarter, i hope it doesn't stay a B. pfft. my brain hurts.

so i had something thought provoking and interesting to say when i thought to get on here and type but now its lost me. hmmmm, dont know, i got nothing. maybe i just need some sleep......

PURGING

years ago a movie called the banger sisters came out and my mom wanted to see it really bad. i bought the dvd without knowing what the movie would be like, and i remember watching it with my mom one night. when the movie was over she said that i probably wouldn't appreciate what it was about because i was young. if you've never seen it it's about 2 friends who were groupies when they were younger. 20yrs later one is still living in that past, the other has grown up and moved on. the mature one lost sight of herself b/c of family obligations---always sacrificing herself for someone or something else. it's a good movie to watch if you can appreciate a sort of coming of age story. anyhoo i just watched it on tv and it made me think about change, sacrifice, being true to yourself or not, my mom.......you know. it makes me wonder what my mom may have gave up in order to be the mom she was.
i hate change personally, but i know it's the only real constant in life. i remember a time when i felt like i lost myself, and i just couldn't get back to where i was. it felt like i didn't recognize the face in the mirror. it was an awful feeling, scary. not being sure of who you are or what you're doing or where you're going is a lot like going thru puberty---super awkward. even as old as i am now i feel like there are times where i am just not sure of anything.....it makes me miss my mom more than words can describe. you know it never gets any easier. in fact i think it just keeps getting harder---the more i accomplish or all the bad days or the times i just want to talk or need some good advice. it's harder than hell.

THE WITCH IS DEAD

ding, dong the witch is dead (i really had the urge to skip thru the hallways singing this the yesterday).........yes folks our d.o.n has moved on to "better" things than our little facility. needless to say our building has had yet another incident with narcotics and/or other drugs coming up missing---can anyone say RANDOM DRUG TEST PLEASE!!!---anyhoo..........so when the nurse got busted and the d.o.n called, supposedly it was said to just cover it up. who knows for sure b/c it is a rumor but still. so at the end of this story we lost a nurse and the d.o.n b/c of some drugs. i guess all those psa's were right all along........drugs are bad for you. (and remember folks---cover your own ass, not anyone elses!)

soon to come........the next witch to force her evil doings upon the lowly flying monkeys