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well well well....its been awhile! lets c.......y'all read mandys post. just for the record we watched sin city. it was bad ass!!

i also had a bit of a mood problem. for anyone thats ever been married u may b able to relate.....u c even though my x caused me many tears i still believed he was the one. and now being divorced and givin it another go with someone new.....well i felt like i was cheating him out of what i felt with my x just cause i had it in my head that the great one only happens once. even though i am smarter than to believe that its impossible to find someone better. know what i mean??? point is is that i havent been puttin forth much effort cause of this lil stigma and i would probably feel this way forever no matter what til i let my defenses down and start truly believing otherwise. so after much writing, a couple of phone calls, and some time to myself my plan is to spend more time and energy on my new relationship. me worrying about cheating him out of emotions is in itself preventing me from enjoying whats in front of me. duh. lol ----sorry t bout the emotional relapse.

work is work. still low census....which sorta sucks cause that means we get extra days off. sooo if any of y'all r lookin to put granny and pops in a home....... one of my fav nurses keeps havin this lil ol' man hit on her. hes like 90 yrs old!! the other nite he told her that if she was interested in having sex with him to just give him a call. lmao. i told her she has to stop talking to ANY of the resident's family members. can u imagine??? ew!

been having terrible headaches lately. hopefully i can get into the chiropractor later today. tim felt along my spine last nite and theres an actual gap where i have a vertebrae out. yeah, that feels kinda gross.

on a sidenote......as ive been sitting here typing this out i have been hearing a mouse or maybe mice scurrying along inside the wall behind the computer. i clean ALL the time and havin mice and creepy crawly things around makes me feel dirty! (and not in a good way ;) ) guess ill b makin a phone call to the land lord, wish me luck.