forgive and regret

I know I haven't been easy to get along with. I've been looking for things to fight about. I have some deep underlining issues, that I have heaped upon you unjustly. I love you. I want the whole world to know that you make me happy. I really have turned away the one person I care about, and I'm sorry. A million times over, I'm sorry. You have never done anything to betray me and I have closed you out. We both had thses grand ideas that because we have known each other for so long that this would be easy. We were both wrong. I wouldn't trade this, or you for anything. I have my bad days too. Thats what I'm dealing with now. I constanly want to know what can I do? But you always tell me nothing, well, I need to get my own head straight. There is nothing that you can or have done to justify my actions. I have simply been a dick. I'm sorry I have hurt you. I'll do what ever I need to do, to make this right. You make happy. The simple thought of coming home to you makes me happy. I blew this round big time. I only hope you'll accept my apologizes. I am sorry.