My happy, emotional day!

I have great news! My sister's boyfriend has asked her to marry him. My little sister is getting married. Even though I am so happy for her I am so sad. I remember that when we were younger I would tell everyone that she was my baby. HA! I have been so upset and crying today because I just don't seem right. She is my little sister. She isn't supposed to be all grown up and be getting married. I can't help but think what I have done wrong to not have the chance to be in her shoes. It mustn't be my time. I just thought that I would be married before her and I would play the big sister role and be able to help pave the way. I have been crying all day. I want to play barbie's with her again and play dress up. I want her to be that little monkey that would just cling to you. I want to play " verum verum" with her again! I know that sounds funny. My sister and I would lay on our backs and put our feet together and act like we were pushing petels down on a race car and we would pretend we were racing. We could do that for hours. Oh well. I guess its silly but its still my baby, my friend, my sister. Congrats!