SWEET DREAMS???

ugh, i hate it when i cant sleep. i am restless. its like ive got a trillion things racing thru my mind so quickly that i cant even put the thoughts into words.....well this definitely sucks! with the hope that if i at least try to type these thoughts out i will find sleep soon im gonna start rambling......the other day i had a conversation with a random person. i shouldnt even call it a conversation cause they did all the talking. which in some instances its appropriate to just listen, but this person was self absorbed. i called them out on this rude behavior and the reply i got was "so what". hmmm what the hell happened to common courtesy? god the world is goin to shit. it pisses me off and disgusts me......would a hot shower help the feeling i have? ugh. i have had this urge to call tim all day and have refrained myself. dont know y for sure, just did. but now the urge is even stronger. i read an entire book today, "lovely bones", wow. bout a girl who is raped and murdered. she tells the story from heaven as she watches her family deal with the whole ordeal. i cant even put into words how its made me feel. i can definitely relate to some characters. i keep gettin headaches, not sure y but i always get a hint of panic when i get a really bad one......as if i have some undetected brain anuerysm. i need bread and milk and i need to go get my laundry from my brothers. i feel better but when i blow my nose blood comes out.....i need to calm down. just breathe. fuckhead didnt bring my shit back to me like he said he would, not surprised but now he says he'll ship it to me.......god what if something sentimental breaks. ill b devastated. ugh. i have a thing for him to renew the tags for his car on my bday he says hes already mailed it in but i dont trust him. what happens if he doesnt get the tags? my name is on the registration, will i get into trouble? im sick of hearing about other ppls relationships.....god the world is goin to shit....i still need to finish up rodneys house, only the kitchen left. god! i miss my mom. i want a different job. thank god for the sunshine and warm weather. always a positive right? ahhhhhhhhhhh. this isnt working, im gonna try some fresh air........