I just thought I would write down some random things. First there are now three weeks of school left including finals... I am only like completely flipping out. I am a little disappointed in myself because somehow I can't pull off all A's with fewer credit hours and drinking less. Go figure. There are probably lots of reasons and I am sure that most of you are like oh great another perfectionist. I am not, but I like to do my best and usually that's enough...
My real focus is to remind myself that while everything is really sucking right now, that next year I have my apartment and I will be trying to find a new place that isn't in Ohio and I will be free or at least freer. I don't know what it is but I don't know I can't stay in Ohio and not just because finding a job would be hard. I need to start living my life. For so long I have just been tryying to get through everything, and now that I am almost through school I want to enjoy my life. I just hope that one day everything falls together and I can.
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doing less than what u know u can accomplish is always disappointing, but i think that ur just distracted. if its really that important maybe u need to forget w/e else u have goin on and just concentrate on school. some things just require that kind of focus.
i too from time to time wonder what it is exactly that i have done or am doin with my life. i blame it on routine!! try doin something different....even takin a different route to get to class may help, or change ur hair color ;)?!?!?! there r things that we just have to "get thru" to realize the bigger goal, but it doesnt mean that u cant enjoy or hate the process....maybe ur feeling numb to life???
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