UMMM, YEA!!!!!

So I haven't posted in awhile but I have just moved and all of that bullshit and I haven't found that time. My apt is cool. I love being on my own again. Although, I do miss my friends, which reminds me, I should give them a call. As Tasha has made mention there is this guy from work that I am absolutely crazy over but he has a situation already which is cool. I am happy for him but I have come to notice that I am starting to feel for him more than friends. WTF!!! I just don't understand. I try to guard myself and then one day I wake up and find myself playing the same song. I don't know. I know that I am lacking in the whole "love" department meaning that I don't believe in it. But for the second time in my life I actually want to believe and I want to be in love again. But for the first time in my life I know that I am wrong, everything is wrong and I feel as if I am losing control of everything. I have been feeling this way for awhile. Not just because of him. I don't know. I know we will stay just friends and I am happy that I have him in my life and I wouldn't trade it for nothing. He means a lot to me and I will stand by him right or wrong. So, anyhoo, other than that there is nothing new. I just take care of me and keep on keeping on. Take care and I will type more later.