Friday, March 25, 2005
realizations
So yesterday while I was eating Wendy's in my car, I realized that I am twenty and that not only that but in many ways I am still very young. I know I grew up fast in many ways and maybe I have tried to stay young in others or even regressed. What matters is I think I have some growing up to do still. I ain't really sure I want to grow up completely. I don't really know. It's weird because I really do want to find my one true love. Like that is the one thing that I have always believed in, sometimes doubted, but still believed and hoped that somewhere in the world that I would find that one person. But for some reason, that I probably know but don't care to admit, I just never take the chance or never take the right one. I am thinking that I should wait until I am in a permanent place before I go looking for that someone. So one more year....
1 comment:
yes u r young hun, but ur experience has made u mature and responsible even if u dont always act like it. we all need a break from being a "grown up" from time to time---a chance to act like a kid or even throw responsibility and reason out the window. theres nothing wrong with that. i think theres always room to grow and learn in life. i dont think that theres a specific age that makes u "old" or "grown up".
life is a whole lot of risks. every time u make a decision ur taking a risk....if ur not taking a chance on getting to know someone how do u know that ur not missing out? sure, sometimes that chance doesnt work out---u learn that the person is an asshole or has habits u cant tolerate or w/e but ull never know unless u try. even with failure u learn more and more what it is that ur lookin for in ur relationships---b it platonic or romantic. if ur planning on moving then i would wait to try to start a serious relationship...long distance ones suck! maybe u have more variables in ur life right now that u need to get str8 b4 u start the "man hunt". lol but i also think that theres nothin wrong with a few dates between now and then---itll help u get ur "check list"! ;)
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