I HATE SNOW

lets talk about contentment versus happiness. i think theres a big difference. for me, i c contentment as settling. happiness is being excited about gettin up in the morning and doin w/e it is that u gotta do or seeing whoever u gotta c. am i happy when i get up and do my thing.......yes. however, i still have feelings of just contentment. how can that b? happy and yet content. i dont ever want to settle for anything. i have never just let something go when i know it could b better. even when i was younger i would get this ansy-ness about me that my mom could read......she would tell me that i am always thinkin that life is more, when this is it. hmmm, what does that mean? this is it. u mean, goin to work, payin the bills, chores, and possibly a family is IT? no way, i refuse to accept that. im not expecting to go all over the world or take extravagant vacations but somehow there has to b more! i hate routine, except for work---routine there is good. if my life starts feeling routine then i get restless. contentment = settling = routine. grrrrr. tim seems to think that im just experiencing "cabin fever".......hes probably right, i live for the sun and havin fresh air blow in thru the windows. MOTHER NATURE, PLS HURRY UP AND BRING ON THE SUN AND HEAT!!!