WISHES.....

the other nite tim came over to check on me and we got on the subject of death. we talked about wills and living wills and what we wanted to happen when we passed on. well, i did most of the talkin, i dont think he is quite as comfortable about the whole subject as i am. the convo started when i realized that my emergency contact person doesnt even know what im allergic to! not that this had me in fits, but it would b better if they knew u know. and it would b better if my contact person was aware of my wishes if a situation were to come about, but they dont. it brought up all kinds of things.....did u guys think of this stuff when u put someones name on that little line? cause i didnt think twice about it til the other nite, and that was a little scary. how awful would it b if u were lyin in a hospital bed and the doctor asks ur contact person, r they allergic to anything and the only thing the person could do is give the doc a blank stare?!?! or what if the situation were that u could have emergency surgery and have a 50% chance to live or lay in the bed and still have a 50% chance to live.....would ur contact person know what ur wishes were? mine sure doesnt........its a subject thats touchy, most ppl dont want to think about the end. i think we sign someones name as an emergency contact thinkin they will do whats in our best interest, and no doubt they would. but what if what they think is in our best interest isnt what we really want? its a very mature subject that needs more discussion. i know that when i lost my mom i had no idea what all of her wishes were, so i just went with my gut and how well i knew her. no one should have to guess.......

1. i want to b cremated. dont buy an urn, put some of my ashes in a pretty jar--somethin that screams "Tasha"--the rest of my ashes, spread out at Memorial Gardens.

2. if i have an accident that has caused me to b a vegetable, do not do anything that will prolong my life, i am nothing without my mind.

3. i am allergic to amoxicillan and bee stings make me ill. i am borderline diabetic and i have a heart murmur.

4. if i still have my journals when/if "that" time comes.....burn them all and pls respect me even in death by not reading them b4 u burn them.

5. take my life insurance policy and pay for funeral expenses and final bills. do not go out with w/e money is left over and purchase things for urself---my death is not for ur profit. put some of the left overs in bonds or cds so that someone, maybe my kids, can go to school or at least have a safety net in case of hard times.

6. i want my loved ones to have my photos and drawings. and to take something of mine that is not necessarily of monetary value to remember me by. my daughter, if i have a girl, will have my wedding ring. the family heirlooms that i have now will go back to my brother. i want my old clothes to b given to any nursing facility, not salvation army.

7. u can donate my organs except my eyes.

8. no autopsies.

9. pls notify Rodney, Uncle Carl, Tim, Angie, Dave(from neffs) if somethin serious happens. Tim and Angie can help ya figure out who else of my friends to notify.

10. all the material objects---furniture, dvds, cds, pc, etc. will stay with my spouse or go to my kids when the time comes. if i dont have my own family...if it will make ur life a little easier to have say my tv or microwave, etc. feel free to take it, but no fighting over shit. anything that was moms will also go back to my brother.

11. do not let family and "friends" come out of the woodwork lookin for somethin they dont deserve.

12. Tim and Jess r to b in charge of my estate.

i think that covers it without givin out to many specifics to the whole world! ;) those will b specified in a will. i feel better havin discussed these things with tim, cause i at least know that if my emergency contact person doesnt know these things or doesnt read this....i know they will tell tim if somethin bad happens to me and he can guide them. even though its not a happy conversation to have we need to have it and so there it is.