well work tonite was interesting.....in that i did most of the fuckin work!!! now i understand that the girl i was workin with was sick---feel like u wanna puke sick---but if she was that sick then her ass shoulda stayed home. grrrr. i got all the vitals, put my ppl to bed, passed dinner trays, picked up trays, put 2 of her ppl to bed, did her last rounds, rearranged furniture, and did a bed bath all this evening........yeah i busted my ass, and thank god my nurse noticed. u know the ppl i like to work with is getting fewer and fewer. tomorrow nite i work with M, whew! my resident, D, from the other side told my boss this evening that she likes me takin care of her and that he needs to put me on her hallway.....i was lucky enough to witness this convo and sure enough he said that on wednesday she'd have me. hmmmm
i saw mandy on sunday. she came to pick up that phone i borrowed......but we got to gabbin and threw off my plans for the rest of the day. ugh, i hate it when that happens!! guess ill b doin those chores on thursday now. but anyways.......she brought up the fact that this guy she had been so frequently talkin about is now a turnoff to her. and yet she continues to do what shes been doin with this guy, hmmm. doesnt make much sense to me but its her drama. i try to point things out to her, get her to think and i know she hears me. having her listen is another story. but thats the way it goes with most of us when our friends r tryin to point out bad situations and such........God help her.
tim has a "get away" planned for me this upcomin weekend since ill have 3 days off in a row. something about pampering? i dont know....but i dont take to ppl just doin things for me very well. when ive been taught all my life to b self sufficient and independent its hard to just let go and let someone else do the work. am i crazy? i suppose ill just suck it up and try to enjoy the pampering. i know hes doin what most chics would kill for in a bf, but we've known each other for 10yrs!!! hasnt the "newness" the "honeymoon" stage worn off by now? i shouldnt even bring it up and just b appreciative---and i am so ill just "hush my muffins", relish in the journey and thank god that ive been lucky enough to have met him in the first place!!!
i feel somewhat better. still stuffy and nasal-y and tired......ok so it sounds like im still sick, but my throat isnt hurtin and i have my voice back! small steps...... ;) so im off here to soak and then crawl into bed. awwww sweet sleep zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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I do understand the point of being self sufficient and independent, but isn't there also a point that you do just have to let go or "give in" a little bit? This Tim guy is trying to give you a nice, relaxing time, and it seems like you just don't really appreciate it. I know you say you do, but is that just because you know you should?
Just because he is planning this pampering weekend for you doesn't mean you aren't self sufficient and independent. My advice is to let go of all this work drama, as it sounds like is stressing you out, and relax this weekend. Enjoy!
i appreciate everything that he does for me cause i have never had a guy do that kind of stuff for me. it takes time to get used to. that and im not an overly "sappy" person---sharing my feelings all the time or havin heart to heart talks weekly. i can b sweet but its my own style....i also worry that he could b spending his money on better things, bills, savings, w/e. i dont need a getaway that bad, know what i mean??? im not materialistic. i dont need trips and a bunch of "stuff" to b happy. but i will let go as much as i can and love that he thought of me and my welfare that much. :)
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