WHERE DID EVERYONE GO?

come out come out where ever u r! this is an official roll call! lmao i know mandy isnt feelin good, talked to her the other day. believe me she sounds like shit---HOPE U FEEL BETTER CHICA! and i know that tim is doin aight, cause i saw him just yesterday. but darcy......where in the hell r u??? i miss ya hoochie mama! when r u comin home next??? ill even go as far to call out cos. maybe we're all busy livin in the "real world"? thats cool, thats much better than sittin in front of this damn box. but y'all r worryin me........hit me up with somethin!!!!!!!! i havent even gotten to c my bro, i go to visit and hes never there, so i just bullshit with his gf---still id like to c his face! hmmmm.......................i got to c my girl angie the other day. that was nice considering i havent seen her in oh i dont know at least a month. however she got me all flustered.......shes good at givin me the reality checks that i need. (so is the rest of the ratpack, im not knockin them) but i tell ya, she had my hands sweatin and my eyes wellin up with tears---partly cause i was laughin so hard, but also cause she had me feelin like i was in high school again crushin on some boy. (amazing how some ppl affect u huh?) i was tellin her bout me havin no desire or passion for anything or anyone right now. we talked about how it could b in part over the shit ive had to deal with over the last couple of wks, but im not really stressin over it---ive got a plan, and so that makes me feel better over that shit. we've concluded that its mostly b/c im lookin for something that i cant find but yet is right in front of my face. which i wasnt even aware of cause i wasnt lookin to find it in this person. this is the point in our conversation that u would insert flustration, hand sweating and tears. i never thought to find what i was lookin for in this person cause.......well.......we're friends. but lately the dynamic of our friendship has changed a lil bit, way more cuddling, makin plans(which he isnt known to do), and hugs now everytime b4 he leaves. i thought it was a lil odd, and still didnt make anything of it til talkin with angie. im still not goin to make anything of it, but its left me with all kinds of questions. yeah yeah, i know just talk to him, ask him the questions........what if i do and he didnt realize what hed been doin and to him its nothing and then ive made an ass of myself??? and potentially made our friendship very very weird??? what to do, what to do