JUST BREATHE

well its finally over.......i took my test today and it was nothin like i was thinkin!!! thank god. i finally feel like i can breathe. although im not sooo sure what im meaning by that. i guess it means i have no worries for right now. which is a very good thing cause it seems like for the last month it has been one thing after another.....such is life, i know. i have talked with my x about doin whatever he needs to do so that we dont have to deal with each other EVER again. which requires him to make the car payments on time everytime or even better, to refinance that damn car. and as far as the assholes that i keep meeting........FUCK 'EM!!! i have been questioning myself alot lately and ive decided i dont do anything wrong, cause nothin lasts long enough for me to do anything wrong. i DONT drop my pants for anything that comes along and i always have my eyes open for whatever is comin at me. i cant walk around in the world assuming the worse of other ppl and constantly having doubts about them or their character. i do what i can do, and thats just b me. if thats not enough then w/e. im not goin to become cynical about everyone and everything.....how depressing is that? on a lighter note..........i have been talkin to a new "potential". at the risk of sounding rude, i have "grilled" him and he seems genuine in his answers to my questions, but im still somewhat doubtful. we'll c what this proves to turn into. in all honesty, i have never talked with someone that i have quite so much in common with........at least not since YRS ago. even my x and i NEVER had sooo much in common, which makes me a lil excited over this new one. we're gettin together on saturday so heres hopin........................ :)