Geminis

So I was talknig to my friends about zodiac signs and they told me about how contradictory geminis are and I was like wow that really is me. There was this poem I rea in Spanish class that had a line in it that said "soy un ajiaco de contradiciones" and ajiaco is a soup that is a like everything soup and I was like yeah that what I am an everything soup full of contradictions. I am beginning to really hate it. I feel like nothing because it all cancels out. I can seriously sit there and tell the same person in the same situation to let it out and cry one day and buck up and be happy the next. Damnit I just made my own head hurt. Right now I just want to know who I am. Now that all the bullshit is out and I can hopefully live my life I just want to know who I am. And then I figure another piece out and I am a contradiction basically. And I just can't do this right now. Goodnight.